positive circle

we fought , we laugh, we cried and we face so many things together
and i sure we are exited for the next adventure. i wish he would be my khalifah
i will change, for me, for my dad, my family, him, and his family. i will for better.
and as the challenge comes, i will try my best to solve it. i wouldn't run(even though i wish)
this time, im back for good.
i am nurqistina binti mohd noordin, who is independent, loving to all and i am back, new me.
pray for me, insyallah

i may curse at people or surround
may wanna loose
or may wanna cry
of fight
and cut my life all around back
well, hey its me.
i believe, no matter how far i fall back,
i will get back on track.
all i need is support, pray and ALLAH S.W.T blessing.
I'm okey

december

re branding rumah
kita tgk jadi ke tak

mission lama?
oh on going lagi, still mencari

*walaupun aku suka berangan dan mimpi siang hari, aku percaya, sampai hari ni, aku xpernah give up lagi*

insyallah

jawapan

KENAPA AKU DIUJI?

“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan (saja) mengatakan : “kami telah beriman,” sedangkan mereka tidak diuji lagi? Sedangkan Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta.”

Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TIDAK DAPAT APA YANG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

“……..Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu dan boleh (jadi) pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui.”

Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.”

Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

RASA KECEWA?

“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah (pula) kamu bersedih hati padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman.”

Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

“Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaranmu dan tetaplah bersiap siaga (di perbatasan negerimu) dan bertakwalah kepada Allah supaya kamu beruntung”

Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan shalat. Dan sesungguhnya demikian itu sungguh berat, kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyu’.”

Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI

“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli orang-orang mu’min, diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka…..”

Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP

“…..Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal. Dia adalah Tuhan yang memiliki ‘Arsy yang agung.”

Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

ANDAI AKU DAH TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI!!!!!!

“…..Dan jangan kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, melainkan kaum yang kafir.”

Surah Yusof ayat 87

step 2: fashion try out 01

i google few picture as my reference and try out for my self. few friends say there's no way i cant manage to fit with this type of style . so its okey, xtry xtau kan? but then kena start slow2 jugak lah sbb terlalu busy! hahah! anyway, i'm + sized .. meaning +belly, +tight and +waist ! its kinda hard untuk pakai baju masuk dalam seluar neeeh! then again, better try than not! i pick up my arwah mother's bag, vintage cardigan, white shirts and and this new pants that i just brought( help me with the name please, i didn't know! hehheh) . AND...! its kinda good! kaan? so far im having fun. and you should too. size is not a matter people!! i will put picture that i use as reference and the other is what i wear! . insyallah it will getting better evryday. x)

katenye casual tomboy

here's the result yawl!!

DAY 1.1. Step uno!

Its been a rough 21 days. Busy with work and all. But promise is a promise and mission is still ON! . SO I restart again everything. First im gonna show u guys how I re made my room. A good start will always be the first u step when you woke up. Sooooo, I’ve decided to re made my room . What I do is. I divided my room into two parts. now now now...I will brag you with my itsy bitsy story.

First part is the studio; I put all my artwork and my beloved team (TERATAK MALAM) artwork at wall for inspiration. My Studio is the place where I can lepak2 and do my work. It’s also a nice place for basic shooting. Here I can do painting, designing, writing and also reading. Oh plus plus Its too cozy I might sleep here too! How I manage to do that? OK! My dad use to have kiosk where he sells all design shirts, dress, shoes and bags. Now the business is closed, all the things that he used to hang were stuck as mess at our home! I got a lot of things that can be used but became the liability of space. What I do is I take few unused boxes, for my laptop table and book table. 3 Lights were install, my wall is covered by paintings.. lalallalala everything is DIY and second hand item! Wauuulaaaahhh, I get my own studio! When your salary is 2 month shorts. U NEED TO GET CREATIVE!

The other side of my room is… OFCOZ my bedddie la love! Haha. There’s bed, place to put my projector so I can watch movie and my cloths. Simple yet nice. Here I can sleep while “berangan” with windows open. Very chill, cozy and WELL COORDINATED! I put my wardrobe as partition so when I do my works I didn’t see my bed and when I sleep, I sleep like there’s no problem at all.

So ok ok ok. You know how I meesed up with clothes all over places. Things uncoordinated when Im busy. So! I also set up place where I can throw my clothes and also other things! Hahahha . Well coordinated right! ?

Takes me 1 day to re made all the placement and 1 day to clean everything up. While cleaning I got packaged of fever, flu and caught due to the UN friendly dust that has been kept in my room for years! Long time fighting! Goodbye dust, HEEEELLLLLOOOOO NEW ROOM!

Enuff talking, more on photos!

This is the photo of my room before i change into magical!

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5..4..3..2..1

ccchhheerrriiinnnggg!!!

STUDIO






my old wardrobe door

tampal laa sket2 fashion style sebagai kamus hari2! hahah

unused box as laptop table. i also put some decoration of brand tags that i loooove to collect


item used: 2 boxes of shoes, plywood and lights



tiny little library.


BED LAAAA LOOOVEEEE



My friend is borrowing my projector. so ti was not in the picture.. sooory

coooozzzy!


As for the partition

bag and shoes place.. awesome

make up and "throwing things" table!

this is the overall look..

credit to izzaz for helping me punch in the wall and carry all the heavy things! much love!

You should try on yourself too. Maybe its different than I am. My advised is go out and get inspired. Go to any cafes, mall, ikea maybe. Do some research and try out! Do and put whatever you love the most. BE BRAVE AND CREATIVE. Takes me months to study how to manage my room. And now it was a success. If I can do it. YOU ALSO CAN!!! So goodluck lovers . and might share some photos to me! Have fun!

Till then, steps one, DONE!

start new start frfesh-again

after all tough 20 days. i wanna start my mission all over again.


and this time is FOR REAL!

Day 1

ok so now i am the office. bertolak dalam pukul 6.30 pagi dari bangi dengan duit sbnyk rm13! kena datang awal sebab today got meeting at 9.30. so i need to prepare all the design in hard copy. nak harapkan abang and ayah,mungkin xsempat. so! tumpang la en.izzaz since he was in bangi untuk ambik his design from faizal. fuh! dgn tak tidor lagi saya GIGIH ke office! ahah!

so hajat ke dua ke ofis lebih awal adalah untuk meletakkan gambar2 yg sudah di amik dari internet sebagai rujukan disini. for starters , i will use serena van der woodsen and Blair waldorf for now(i really admire their style of fashion!) .

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as for today, i didnt have much time to choose which to wear sbb xsmpt. so i just grab my orange collar t-shirt with straight cut jeans and long cardigan(pink) . as for hijab, i use my favorite chocolate printed pashmina shawl

oh hari ni rajin sket. put some make up while waiting for the file to be transfer


i need coffee! ohh and MONEY! hahaha!

till then. x)

its FRESH!

1st) im tired of looking at this beautiful girls wearing anything they want and still look good . Tak kesah la berhijab atau pun tak. i adore them i really do. cume nya bila sampai di badan ini. it just dosent work out that way! so i cry, fight with the one i love. and kurung dalam bilik watching movie and do nothing but eat(this is other than working lah).

2nd) i always wanted to try something new but at the end it looks like uniform. ughh. it really stress me up when i dont have the power to try and make it change. So i need something new in myself . something FRESH! i wanna look good and i wanna be proud.

3rd) . I've start wearing hijab to office now. I need to start it slow. but will get to complete hijab. haha! anyway, whoever know me will understood that i really dont know how to wear a tudung. i will look like a mess!

The mission, i wanna try new things,new style. since with this size and "not so pretty to the world" look sangat lah susah nak fit in. i wanna make a change.

So what i wanna do is. i start doing research. follow some blogs,buy magazines and download some pictures as my dictionary to accomplish my mission. maybe if i post this, i will help girls like me as well! haha!

till then . wait for my next post!!

yeay

life's currently good
walaupun xde duet
tapi im havin fun
dengan semuanya!
terima kasih

time timed

satu hari
di dewan
aku di jeritkan dengan suara sumbang
menyedarkan aku
yang aku kena berhenti menipu diri aku dengan masih berharap
sbb on the other side mungkin die sudah pun menyampah
aku dah ada orang yang bila aku terjatuh .
dia akan pegang aku
jadi no more hopes
no sparkles
hanya kenangan yang sangat2 cantik
terima kasih kawan
u really teach me alot
and i move on


ps: izzaz i love you walau dirimu bagaikan itik panggang kalau kene panas! haha

rahsia

aku dah lame x berahisa dengan orang,tak berkongsi walau aku ade sesuatu yang perlu aku luahkan,aku tak tahu knapa,sbb boring ke?atau aku lagi suke mengdengar dari becerita?.kebanyakan rahsia yang aku dapat hanyalah daripada orang lain yang mengceritakan kepada aku(itu lain la).sampai aku rindu berahsia.aku rindu ada rahsia aku sendiri yang ade org lain pn tahu.rahsia?penting ke?atau hanya satu simbolik.entah ,yang penting semua ada rahsia.

aku tunggu bertahun2 untuk kemukakan suatu rahsia ni pada seseorang.aku gembira akhirnya aku berjaya juga melaksanakan ape yang aku impikan.ia berjalan dengan sangat lancar.kali ni aku dapat hidup dengan tenang dan bahagia.tapi itu adalah satu rahsia.aksi nya,perbualanya dan aktivitinya adalah rahsia.kenapa aku buat mcm tu.sbb bagi aku ,kadang-kadang sesuatu pekara tu lebih elok dikongsi oleh orang tertentu sahaja.pada mulanya aku merasakan aku dah buat satu bende yang sangat salah dan membahayakan.tpi tibe2 aku terdetik. ni la saat2 nya untuk aku habiskan segala-galanya.sekarang ia hanya tinggal memori ,persetujuan dan rahsia.apa yang telah mengjadi imej pada mental kepada kamu semua tidak akan memberi kesan kepada aku sbb aku taw ape yang aku taw.dan kamu semua takan pernah faham.

aku suka rahsia.sbb buat aku macam bermakna.x)

cerita

ini hanya iklan.tadi kawan aku ade cakap satu pekara yang sangat simple yet interesting.die cakap yang rezeki yang diberikan kepada kita telah dimaktubkan setiap hari,cuma atas usaha kita sama ada ia halal atau pn tak.contoh nye ade kisah satu saidina ni(die tak ingat name),saidina ni suruh seorang budak ni jaga kuda nya sbb die nak pergi satu tmpt kejap.mase die kat tempat tu die berniat yang kalau budak ni jaga perfect die akan bagi satu dirham.so bile die balik kat kuda tu die tgk yang budak tu dah hilang dan tali kuda nya pn hilang.kemudian die pergi la cari tali kuda die.pastu die jumpe kat dalam satu kedai ni.die tanye la mana org kedai tu dapat.org kedai tu cakap yang ada budak telah jual kepadanya sebanyak 1 dirham.get it?
it happens to my friends also.die cite yang mase die pernah kerja kat kedai perabot haritu die ade tolong dis pasangan suami isteri,bile dah habis angkat semua bawak naik atas ,makcik tu bagi die sepuluh ringgit.den bile die turun pakcik tu plak bagi..den die cakapt la yang die da dapat da 10 ringgit dari makcik.so pakcik tu cakap"amik la,sebab jujur" .kire either way die dapat gak 20 ringgit haritu sama ada die menipu ataupn x. intersting kan?

support!

for the first time time in my life i feel proud to be malaysians .
dengan gaduh sane sini . racism . politics and all . well i didnt say that i particularly know everything that is happening in this world . tapi somehow i still know a bit la . cummon , GANGS and PUAK2 ni! macam bodo! fights here and there . with your own people . we suppose to help each other out! to me . we still leave in the third class mentality .i mean , kerje nak jage tepi kain orang , hasad dengki . ohh and not only like racism between races , ngn KAUM sendiri pn ade . ahh fuckin shits man .sampai satu tahap i am ashamed to admit that i am malaysians , i am sick with typical love songs that has being create .sick with india lepak ngn india and cina lepak ngn cina and ni paling best . as far as i've been through laa .KELANTAN dgn KELANTAN je .
rase mcm makhluk asing blaja sane . to kelantanese , i know some of you is not like that . well i am sorry for being harsh . but i'm telling the truth
this is not just an odinary songs . not like some malaysian artistes who sucks like hell . meyampaikan sesuatu yang dirasakan sampai tapi TIDAK kesampaian pn maknanya . and it really hurts by just listening to it .buat lagu tuh jangan boring sangat bole an?!

i've once give up on besabar dengan pecah belah dan racism , and this song really wake me up again . so from now on . i support this unity work! hooyeah!

david teo- you have such a decent and brave heart .good job! finally someone really spoken up!
and dalam ni atilia hot gile! haha . kay enuff for the crap

just watch listen enjoy and support it!

for more details go to this site

www.malaysianartistesforunity.info/